The "Agent Smith" cycle

Human beings are fascinated by things that are out of ordinary. Things like miracles, extra terrestrial beings, things that can be termed as "odd news", things that we don't want to beileve in - are actually the things that we tend to look for. Likewise we are fascinated by people who are different from us. People who do not share our habits. People who take interest in things that we do not enjoy. The general belief is that we befriend people who are like us, people who can enjoy the same things that we do. I will not disagree to that but what I am talking is about being fascinated.

It is the surprise of finding someone living a life that is different from ours when we thought ours was the only way of living that initiates it all. A general curiosity to know more about the difference is instigated because it is something we cannot explain or understand. It is the unknown that beckons us and we proceed.

With time, however, the fascination fades and after the initial curiosity is quenched, one comes back to reality. It is no more the unknown. We look at things as they are, without the cosmetics of either surprise or interest. It is then that we tend to realise that the paths actually fork. The initial interest changes to irritation and finally to indifference.

We are appalled at the idea of how someone can dislike or like so and so. We mock their enthusiasm for something and reprimand their indifference to something else. Their ideals that we listened with inquisitiveness a few days ago seem like a monotonous blabber and make no sense whatsoever. We never could relate to it, we were just reading. Now the book is over, we don't want to read again. In course of time we try to infuse our ideals in them, our likes, our dislikes, our enthusiasm and our indifference. In short we make them our replicas. Some resist and move on and some give in, lose themselves and stay. Once that is done, we are back on track to seek a new face.

I used to wonder how is it, that the exact same things that once fascinated, were the also the ones that were altered. How is it that the activities that amazed us were also the ones that irritated us!

It was when I saw Agent Smith in Matrix III, that it started to make a little sense. We sought the distinct to alter, not to appreciate. Not to preserve but to destroy. That to find a person who was like us had no novelty in it but to find someone and alter him could be a challenge, even if a small one.

PS: The above case may not be real because, since forces from both sides work, there comes a time when they could cancel each other. It can be called the point of equilibrium. By that time some of the characteristics of both the persons have already changed. One could call this adaptation, adjustment, compromise or the like. In terms of society, such a thing is beneficial and even necessary but in terms of an individual, it is just alteration, plain and simple.